Author: SAVE DIRT

My life took many turns, not giving up at really knowing ,is,part of personal inventory , reaching out, through, my recollections , makes me feel that , at least my first person perspective is more valid than , say , gossip. I have suffered from mental health issues my entire life . I don’t believe in labels ( diagnostic guesswork ) I have traumatic brain damage, and have seen other labels put on me , in , medical records In grade school , they tested me and in many years , I was put in S L D programs. ( not at Linwood Elementary ). Sever asthma ( that manifested when I was eight years old ) kept me out of serving in the military I worked all of my life = some years there was four or more W 2’s to file . I continued to work ( and volunteer) after getting SSDI in 2004 and still do. I was A. Brother A paperboy A. Handy man child and adult,for my blind Dad A. Kid who helped neighbors A. Boy Scout A. Environmentalist A. Day laborer A. Janitor A. Warehouse worker A. Camper , Hiker , Canoe paddler A. Photographer A. Broom ball player A. House flipper , A. Motorcycle owner A. Forester A. Truck Mechanic A. Farm hand A. Carny A personal care giver A. Volunteer A. Gardener A. Crew leader A. Prisoner And that is only a bit of me there is a lot more to tell.

5 years ago

A life lesson? Or a realization of how things ( perceptions) can be totally wrong .

I was in my room , all my support, my people , had let me down, shown me = my side , my words , were no longer valid to them .

So there I was, no one to turn to , asking myself, what can I do, what can I do ?

my next decision sent me to prison.

My crime was not , in the first degree.( as sentenced)

I simply made a decision in the moment , no premeditation,

I definitely was not trying to hurt anyone or put people out .

I wanted to do two things ,

stop what was happening at that very moment ( my nemesis had the ear of someone dear to me filling her with , lies )

And keep thieves from taking all MY worldly possessions , As had already happened = the Same guys stole much of what I had , in the recent past.

I even stood next to my pile of things , behind them , in my storage room/ bedroom, not thinking of getting out .